I don't know if this project with me and my cousin is gonna work out, as cool as it would be. I'm just not feeling like she's really into it, which annoys me because she could have just said that she didn't wanna work on it, and I would've shifted my focus back to Normal.
We've broken ground on four songs, with only one (barely) near completion. I feel like I'm the only one making effort here. Trying to get her on the phone is like pulling teeth, trying to get her to respond to texts is like waiting for paint to dry, and trying to actually get her to the house to record is like catching a unicorn.
As good as she is at it, I don't think she really wants to sing, or be musically successful. A waste in the eyes of non-singers like me, but... What can I do? If I bug her about working on songs, she eventually just stops responding to my calls/texts. I've been trying the occasional approach, only hitting her up once or twice every couple of days, but she doesn't even respond then. I know people get busy with life and shit, but is a response so hard, really? Just say "I don't wanna work on this project anymore," or "I don't have time to work on the project anymore." It's so simple. Instead, I get ignored a lot, which I hate beyond all comprehensible reason.
I need to talk to her about this. There may just be some shit going on that she hasn't been able to talk about or whatever, though I doubt she'll tell me about it if that's the case. We're not as close as we used to be, which is sad because I consider her (less and less as time goes, I suppose) one of my best friends. I think it's one-sided though. Actually, it's always been off-balance, but the scales are getting more and more skewed, metaphorically speaking. It's depressing, honestly.
I wish my sister could sing like she did. It'd be so easy to make music with her, especially since she's nice enough to not ignore me all the time. Ugh, I sound like a butthurt child.
Actually, I guess I am butthurt. Pretty much, yeah.
Like I said, I need to talk to her before I make any final decisions.
Of course, that's if I ever get in contact with her...(again: pulling teeth, watching paint dry, catching a unicorn, etc...)
Goddamn this. I hate wasting time.
I wasted June. I must do something with July.
Suppose I'll shift focus back to Normal, for the time being. Tailor these songs I've been holding off on since commissioning this flawed project. If this project collapses, I'll just fold those songs into Normal. Ideally, Normal will be 20 tracks, longer than NowhereVille and Nobodies put together, including bonus cuts. That's ideal, though. Gotta see where the music takes me.
Gonna go write and watch Skins, now.
Might try to call my cousin later, but I'm not up for being ignored.
Might hit my homie down the street up instead. Haven't linked up in about a week.
[X_X]-A.P.
We've broken ground on four songs, with only one (barely) near completion. I feel like I'm the only one making effort here. Trying to get her on the phone is like pulling teeth, trying to get her to respond to texts is like waiting for paint to dry, and trying to actually get her to the house to record is like catching a unicorn.
As good as she is at it, I don't think she really wants to sing, or be musically successful. A waste in the eyes of non-singers like me, but... What can I do? If I bug her about working on songs, she eventually just stops responding to my calls/texts. I've been trying the occasional approach, only hitting her up once or twice every couple of days, but she doesn't even respond then. I know people get busy with life and shit, but is a response so hard, really? Just say "I don't wanna work on this project anymore," or "I don't have time to work on the project anymore." It's so simple. Instead, I get ignored a lot, which I hate beyond all comprehensible reason.
I need to talk to her about this. There may just be some shit going on that she hasn't been able to talk about or whatever, though I doubt she'll tell me about it if that's the case. We're not as close as we used to be, which is sad because I consider her (less and less as time goes, I suppose) one of my best friends. I think it's one-sided though. Actually, it's always been off-balance, but the scales are getting more and more skewed, metaphorically speaking. It's depressing, honestly.
I wish my sister could sing like she did. It'd be so easy to make music with her, especially since she's nice enough to not ignore me all the time. Ugh, I sound like a butthurt child.
Actually, I guess I am butthurt. Pretty much, yeah.
Like I said, I need to talk to her before I make any final decisions.
Of course, that's if I ever get in contact with her...(again: pulling teeth, watching paint dry, catching a unicorn, etc...)
Goddamn this. I hate wasting time.
I wasted June. I must do something with July.
Suppose I'll shift focus back to Normal, for the time being. Tailor these songs I've been holding off on since commissioning this flawed project. If this project collapses, I'll just fold those songs into Normal. Ideally, Normal will be 20 tracks, longer than NowhereVille and Nobodies put together, including bonus cuts. That's ideal, though. Gotta see where the music takes me.
Gonna go write and watch Skins, now.
Might try to call my cousin later, but I'm not up for being ignored.
Might hit my homie down the street up instead. Haven't linked up in about a week.
[X_X]-A.P.
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